Sunday, December 29, 2019

33 Week Update

Happy Holidays!  It's been an eventful and busy December for us. But thankfully things have calmed down, and we were able to spend Christmas at home together.  Just a quick recap on where we are at 33 weeks.

Jude - We met with our cardiologist at Texas Children's on December 23 and had another echo done of Jude's heart.  She said it looked about the same as the prior one with some aorta insufficiency this time.  That's something that may clear up after he is born, but again, it will be wait and see.  After presenting his case to the cardiac group at the hospital, the chief surgeon did say not to give up hope that there is a possibility of a fix for Jude's heart.  (If you've read the other post about Jude's diagnosis, then you know the procedures they've recommended would not be a "fix" but a work-around.) It will all depend on what everything looks like after he is born.  The cardiologist did seem to think that he wouldn't need an immediate surgery, but wasn't sure if he would need a stent/shunt after the first week or so.  It will all depend on how his heart does once he's pumping on his own.

Also at Texas Children's on December 23, we had an ultrasound to measure Jude's growth.  They were getting some smaller measurements than what our MFM (OB Specialist) was getting here in Plano (she was measuring him large), so we have to go back to the MFM here in a few weeks to check again and make sure he is growing on target.  We didn't get any photos at this appointment, but here he is at 28 weeks.  He is estimated weigh somewhere between 3lb, 11oz and 4lb, 5oz now.

Jude at 28 Weeks

Misty - Since the last month, my health has gotten a little more complicated, but we are monitoring everything, and I'm doing my best to stay healthy.

Gestational Hypertension - At my November appointment in Houston to meet my new OB, it was determined that my blood pressure was a little high.  They wanted to keep me overnight for monitoring, but we were able to convince them to let me go back home since it was 2 days before Thanksgiving.  At my follow-ups at my OB here at McKinney, my blood pressures have been a little higher, but nothing awful.  I check it 3-4 times a day here at home just to keep an eye on it.

Low Potassium - At the follow-up visit with my OB in McKinney the day after we left Houston in November (to check my blood pressure, which was okay) the blood work results showed I had extremely low potassium, so I spent two evenings in the hospital getting IV potassium infusions.  Thankfully, I was allowed to go home early in the morning on both of those nights, so didn't have to stay in the hospital during the day.  No one really knows why my potassium is low, but I'm now taking daily potassium pills to keep it at a normal range.

Kidney Stones - Two days after the potassium infusions at the hospital I woke up with some pain in my side that proceeded to get worse as the morning went on.  I have had a kidney stone before (when Alex was only a few months old), so I knew that was what I was experiencing again.  After four days in the hospital (in lots of on again/off again pain), they were able to see on an ultrasound that I had a 1 cm kidney stone that would need to be surgically removed.  The procedure went well, and I have since had the stent removed.  Now I am drinking nothing but water in hopes that I can make it through the rest of the pregnancy without any more stones.  The urologist seemed to think my kidney stones may be pregnancy-related due to position of the ureter to the kidney and the baby pushing against it.  Thankfully, I am feeling pain free now.  I will have to go for a follow-up ultrasound and x-ray scans after Jude is born to make sure my kidney looks okay and no more stones.

Gestational Diabetes - Unfortunately, I failed my 3-hour glucose test by 4 points 😒, so I have officially been diagnosed with gestational diabetes.  However, they think it can be completely controlled by diet changes.  So, I've made several diet changes in the last couple of weeks and have to check my glucose levels 4 times a day (not fun, but not nearly as bad as I thought it would be).  The hardest part has been not being able to sneak all the yummy Christmas treats.

Antibodies - The last issue that's popped up has to do with my blood work.  It shows I have some antibodies that have never been there before, and we have no idea where they came from.  Usually this is something you would find after someone has had a blood transfusion, but I haven't had one, so who knows.  I had to have additional blood work done on December 23 in Houston, so they can find exactly which antibodies I have to make sure they have the correct type of blood for me when Jude is born. 

Tentative Future Plans:

Jesse and I plan to move down to Houston on January 20, where we have rented a VRBO to stay in through the beginning of March.  The boys will be going to stay with family in Louisiana while we are in Houston, coming to visit us on the weekends.  Jude is scheduled to be delivered via c-section on February 10.  We are planning for a minimum stay in Houston of 3 weeks post-birth.  If he does have to have a surgery in the first week, that would probably be extended to a minimum of 6 weeks post-birth.  Sorry for the long post, and I will try to update weekly going forward. 

Thank you for reading along and all the kind words, thoughts, prayers, etc. that you have all sent to us.

Tuesday, December 17, 2019

Jude's Diagnosis

On October 9th we visited the fetal cardiology center at Children's Medical Center in Dallas, Texas.  It was interesting and anxiety-provoking to sit through a fetal echocardiogram (an ultrasound of Jude's heart).  Getting an ultrasound of a 19 week fetal heart is an exercise in patience.  About the time we would get the images we needed, Jude would move.  After about 75 minutes of taking pictures it was time to sit down with the cardiologist and go over Jude's diagnosis. 

Misty and I were hoping to hear that Jude had a problem but it was nothing major and would be an easy fix.  Unfortunately, what we heard was the opposite.  I remember feeling nauseous and angry and sad at the same time but was so busy listening to the doctor that I didn't have time to focus on those feelings. 

Jude has a condition called Criss-Cross Heart.  That is the real medical name of his condition -- it is not slang.  This condition is rare with only 20-30 cases a year in the USA.  In fact, it is so rare that our fetal cardiologist in Dallas had never seen the condition in a fetus, though she had seen it in a child that had already been born.  In addition to the criss-cross heart, Jude also has a large ventricular septal defect (VSD), a double outlet right ventricle, and pulmonary stenosis.  In the paragraphs below I will attempt to explain all these defects.  The important thing to understand is that Jude's heart is actually a collection of heart defects that all began when his heart did not fold correctly when he was only a few weeks old.  Due to this collection of defects, Jude's heart is extremely complicated and is difficult to understand even for specialists who care for congenital heart disease daily.

To understand Jude's defect, it is actually helpful to understand a normal fetal heart first. 

The picture above shows both the normal fetal heart and the normal newborn heart.  The two are actually slightly different due to the way blood flows through them.  Remember, a fetus (baby inside the womb) does not breath air through the lungs (actually it breaths amniotic fluid) and therefore gets its oxygen from the placenta.  Therefore, blood entering the fetal heart from below via the inferior vena cava (IVC) is high in oxygen (red blood) because it is coming from mixture of legs and placenta.  The blood entering the heart from above via the superior vena cava (SVC) is low in oxygen (blue blood) because it is coming from the brain and heart.  Blood from the IVC and SVC enter the right atrium.  It is difficult to tell on the picture above, but the blood doesn't actually mix equally in the atrium.  The blue blood is directed mostly into the right ventricle and the red blood is mostly directed across the atrial wall through a hole called the foramen ovale.  This hole is not usually present after birth and is part of what makes a fetal heart special.  Blood from the right ventricle is then pumped through the pulmonary artery toward the lungs.  However, the lungs are full of fluid and do not require much blood flow, so most of this blood is actually bypassed into the aorta through another special fetal part called the ductus arteriosus.  Remember, this blood was mostly blue and the ductus directs this blood down the aorta toward the legs and placenta to get more oxygen.  Meanwhile, the blood that crossed into the left atrium is pushed into the left ventricle and then out the aorta.  This blood is red and due to the location of the ductus arteriosus most of this red blood is directed toward the brain.  Therefore, oxygen rich blood ends up going to the brain and heart and oxygen poorer blood directed to the trunk and legs.

I know this a lot of info but hang in there!  After birth, the lungs fill with air.  Due to this, resistance to blood flow in the lungs drops drastically.  In addition, hormonal changes cause the ductus to start to close and the foramen ovale begins to close as well.  When these structures have all closed, the heart then looks like the heart on the right above (newborn heart).  Now, blue blood returns from the body to the right side of the heart, is pumped to the lungs to get oxygen, returns to left side of heart, and then pumped out to the entire body.  Notice that in the newborn heart there is NO right to left short-circuits and no abnormal connections between pulmonary artery and aorta.  In a normal newborn heart, the right side of the heart and the left side of the heart function independently of each other.  In reality, our heart is two separate pumps connected in series!  Understanding that the heart is two pumps in one will be essential to understanding Jude's defect. 

Before we move on to Jude's defect, I would also like to point out something that sounds obvious.  Notice that in the normal heart everything labeled "right" and everything labeled "left" is on the same side (btw, in medical literature the organ is always presented as if the patient were standing in front of you facing you thus "right" is presented on the left and "left" is presented on right).

As mentioned above, Jude's heart is actually a collection of defects as opposed to one defect.  The main defect that triggered all the other problems is the criss-cross defect.  Over the next several paragraphs I'll introduce each defect.  In addition, I'm going to show a picture our cardiologist drew to help make the point.  It is difficult to show Jude's defect in 2D pictures because his defect occurs in more than one plane.

First, criss-cross.  In the first weeks after conception when the heart begins to form it is actually a linear tube.  This tube swells in several locations and then folds and twists to form the complex structure that becomes the heart.  For Jude, during this process the folding did not occur properly.  The easiest way for me to understand criss-cross defect is to start with the normal heart pictured above.  Imagine you are holding this heart in both your hands.  Imagine you left hand is holding the ventricles (apex) and your right hand is holding the top of the heart (aorta, pulmonary artery and atria).  Now, twist the heart 180 degrees along the long axis by twisting your left hand like you would twist a ballon to make a ballon animal.  Keep your right hand still.   When you have done this, Jude's right and left atria will still be in the correct anatomic locations, however, his right ventricle is now on the left side and his left ventricle is now on the right side!  Blood stills flows correctly from right atrium to right ventricle and from left atrium to left ventricle, however, since these structures are no longer on same side the flow of blood spirals and "criss-crosses" past each other, thus the name of the defect.  In the photo below, the normal heart is "A".  Notice blood should move from RA to RV and from LA to LV.  This movement of blood should be parallel.  Jude's heart looks like "B".  His chambers are correctly connected but on opposite sides and thus the blood flows in an "X" pattern or "criss-cross" pattern.   "C" and "D" below are more complex variations which thankfully Jude doesn't have.

Criss-cross defects almost never occur in isolation.  Because of the abnormal twisting, the arteries draining blood from the ventricles are usually not able to connect in the proper locations.  For this reason, other heart defects usually develop to allow blood to flow through the heart.  Had these other defects not formed, its likely Jude would have died early after conception.  In the words of Ian Malcom on Jurassic Park, "life found a way."  Jude's other defects are really his body trying to work around the criss cross defect.

Let's take his other defects in order of seriousness.  First up, double outlet right ventricle (DORV).  Simply put, this means that Jude's pulmonary artery and aorta both drain from his right ventricle.  The aorta should drain from left ventricle and pulmonary artery from right ventricle.  The picture below is of a standard DORV. 

Remember, Jude's heart isn't this simple because the bottom part of his heart would be twisted.  In actuality, Jude's pulmonary artery and aorta sorta sit in the middle of the bottom part of his heart.  The photo above also shows a ventricular septal defect (VSD).  Basically a "hole" that connects the left ventricle and right ventricle.  Jude has a large VSD that essentially lets blood move between the ventricles making it less important where the aorta and pulmonary artery drain from because the entire ventricle basically functions as a single ventricle (more on this in later posts). 

This final picture is a drawing of Jude's heart by our cardiologist at Texas Children's Hospital in Houston (more on how we got there later)!  Remember how I said it is difficult to visualize Jude's defect in 2D -- this is the best we can do in 2D.  Notice the IVC/SVC drain into RA.  The RA drains across the heart to RV.  The LA (not labeled in picture) drains across heart into LV.  The RV and LV are connected by a large VSD that is partially hidden in this image by the aorta and pulmonary artery.  The aorta and pulmonary artery drain from the center of the connected ventricle.  COMPLICATED!

The last part of Jude's diagnosis is called pulmonary stenosis.  This means his pulmonary artery is small compared to usual size.  This doesn't cause any serious problems in-utero, but could have serious consequences after birth.  Pulmonary blood flow in Jude's case will need to be a "Goldilocks" scenario.  Because his aorta and pulmonary artery drain from a common ventricle, it will be important for blood to flow in correct amounts to correct locations.  If Jude's pulmonary artery were normal in size, he would actually get TOO MUCH blood flow to his lungs because resistance to flow to the lungs is lower after birth than resistance of flow to aorta and flow always takes the path of least resistance.  So, having some pulmonary stenosis is a good thing and will protect his lungs.  However, if the stenosis is too severe he won't be able to get enough blood to the lungs to absorb oxygen and his oxygen levels will be too low.  In that situation, he would need an emergency procedure near birth to increase blood flow to the lungs.  This is the part of the diagnosis that is uncertain and will result in a "wait and see" game when Jude is born. 

So, final diagnosis:  Criss-Cross heart with double outlet right ventricle with large ventricular septal defect and pulmonary stenosis!  A one-of-a-kind diagnosis!

Wow!  Complicated, right?  It took our cardiologist in Dallas over an hour to explain all this to us the first time.  You can imagine we were both in shock.  Not only does Jude have a heart defect, but it is serious and rare.

The natural next question becomes, "how do we fix it".  That's another complicated discussion that I'll save for the next post.  However, I will say that was the icing on the cake for our bad day at the cardiologist -- it can NOT be fixed but we can make it better. 

Monday, December 16, 2019

Our Little Miracle

"Come here, I have something to show you.  Please don't be angry."  These are the words I said to greet Jesse after work one afternoon in early June.  His reaction to the four positive pregnancy tests I had lined up on the counter was one of laughter and happiness. "Are you serious?" he responds.  Yep, we were just sent a surprise blessing and miracle all in one.  You see, Jesse had a vasectomy back in April, and we thought that we were done with this phase in our life.  Now granted, there's a 12-week window that we knew you needed to be out of to be fully sure the procedure worked.  But after his procedure I realized maybe I wasn't quite ready to be finished, so we decided to take a chance and see what happens.  Well, surprise!

We both were so excited and shared with our family and friends in July.  Later in July, we found out through bloodwork results that all the genetic results came back clear, and that we be welcoming another little boy.  We were both happy that he was healthy and I love my boys, so couldn't wait to add another, Baby Jude.

Our lives and pregnancy were turned upside down on September 18 when we went in for our 18-week ultrasound.  As we went through Jude's anatomy scan everything was looking good, and we received confirmation that he was in fact a boy.  Then the ultrasound tech got to the heart and was silent, no "looks good" or "there's his heart".  We immediately knew something was wrong based on her response, but didn't know what.  After waiting to see the doctor, she informed us that Jude had a single umbilical artery and also something was wrong with his heart, but they didn't know what.  It was a blow to the gut for both of us.

The next week was spent worrying and praying that they were wrong.  We were referred to a Maternal Fetal Medicine specialist at Children's in Plano.  She was wonderful and spent lots of time looking at all of his anatomy.  She was able to confirm that something was in fact wrong with his heart, but couldn't tell us exactly what.  We decided to go ahead with an amniocentesis that day just to confirm that there were no genetic abnormalities. This wasn't nearly as scary or as bad as I had pictured in my head.  The needle is long and it did cramp some for the next couple of days, but it was over quickly.  I knew it was worth it to find out as many answers as we could about Baby Jude and how we could help him.  She then referred us to the Fetal Medicine Cardiologist at Children's in downtown Dallas who we were able to schedule a visit to a few weeks later.

The amount of anxiety and stress I felt during this time period is indescribable.  Not knowing what was wrong and if it was something I did to cause it was soul-crushing.  The grief and anger I felt knowing that this pregnancy would no longer be filled with happiness and joy was something that was extremely hard for me to overcome.  There were many days filled with darkness during this time for both of us.  We both knew that Jude was our little miracle from the beginning and just prayed he would continue to be so.